You are sitting on the bathroom floor, alone, with tears streaming down your face. You aren't sure how you ended up there, but you know that you don't feel like yourself. You have lost your spark and the self-help talks just aren't cutting it anymore. Maybe you don't find the good in things like you once did or don't take chances that you used to. Ever been there? Do you feel like you lost the gas that once fueled your fire?
Let me ask you this…where was that fire coming from? Maybe it was a relationship, a job, a team you want to make, your family, a group of friends, a promotion or even the pressures of having it all together. I can relate to this more than I want to admit. Sometimes I find myself fueled by what is around me more than Who is above me. You are not alone, but when this happens, it has proven over and over to be a path of destruction. The thing is, when you put your drive in things like this, you are surely going to be disappointed. Maybe that dream relationship fails, that job sucks the life out of you, you get cut from the team, your family experiences separation, that best friend betrays you…you can't seem to keep your fire lit because what was fueling your fire was, is, conditional. When your drive, your happiness and even your faith are placed on conditional things, your fire may erupt or it may extinguish. But the question becomes, who wants to give anyone or anything that kind of power in your life?! Is that why I am feeling so defeated?
When you think of what scares you does your list include things like heights, spiders, sky-diving or the dark? Or does your list include things like the fear of failure, disappointing the ones you love or not being accepted? I can say with complete certainty that I would much rather have a run-in with a spider than to fail at something I tried so hard for, disappoint my parents or feel left out. If those are the things that have power in our lives, if these are what we place value and identity with, then we are bound to lose.
What would it look like if we took away that fear and replaced it with trust? Trust in something eternal. Trust in the one who saved us. What if it was this trust that fueled our fire? Our Lord died on the cross for us. He hung on a tree and gave His life for you!
Hey you, the one on the bathroom floor, yup…Jesus died for YOU! Dry those tears and begin to shift your perspective! You have a Savior that loves you! He loves you in your victories and He loves you curled up in tears. No matter what you have done, no matter what your past looks like, hear this, you are absolutely adored! He accepts your flaws and He loves your strengths. No matter how far you think you are from Him, no matter how defeated you feel, it is not too late. It is time to get your spark back!
In the story of David and Goliath, it was just a tiny rock that took down a seemingly impossible struggle – a tiny rock and a whole lot of faith! Girl, you can do this! You don't have to save the world in a day. Victory is taking the first step even when you can't see the whole staircase. Today, start putting your trust back where it belongs, knowing that you are loved and that is NOT conditional.
You may be wondering, okay sounds good, but how on earth do I do this? What does it mean to take the first step? I am not an expert and I get into funks all the time, but these three things help to remind me where to put my trust and where my true identity lies.
- Before you step out of bed, give God a big “GOOD MORNING!” Cheesy? Maybe, but I promise it will help you start your day focused on what truly matters. By remembering how you began your day, the small things in the coming hours won't seem so catastrophic.
- Make a list of five things you are proud of yourself for. I did this during training camp while I was working to make the NFL team I currently cheer for, and it was a game changer. I wrote down five gifts God has given me that I am truly proud of. Everytime I started to get self-conscious, feel defeated or began to lose myself in the struggle of not feeling good enough, I came back to my list. I read those five things over and over again reminding myself that God gave me these five things for a reason. No matter what you are going through, you can come back to your list, give yourself a pep-talk and know that you must and CAN use those gifts to glorify Him.
- Remind yourself that your story could be just what someone else needs. He could be using you in the smallest ways so you don't ever want to miss your opportunity! Something as small as your smile, your listening ear or your testimony could change someone's life. When you feel like you have nothing left to give, find a way to give a little more…this is when God works miracles.
My sister, my sweet sister, you are worth so much more than that bathroom floor. You are a child of God and that makes you royalty! God cares more about your next step more than He does your misstep. Take a chance and see what miraculous things God can do with a little trust in Him. Watch that spark you thought was lost turn into a beautiful blazing fire.
I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit! -Romans 15:13
Written By: Lauren Parker