5 In Faith/ Relationships

Heart-Help For the Hopeless, Hurt, or Heartbroken

We met in college just months after I survived a broken heart. He lived in a tiny house behind my apartment complex and one night, after connecting through our mutual friends on social media, he weathered the cold and rain and sleet and hiked over to meet me. I should probably add in here that a part of me didn’t really want him to come over. I hadn’t had a chance to shower after my workout when he announced he was coming to meet me and I was a little bit ashamed of my smell and appearance.

I look disgusting and smell disgusting-er. What a great first impression…

Nevertheless, he knocked on the door and I remember feeling my stomach drop. I froze. He knocked again. Well, here goes nothing!
BAM. There he was. The man who’s name I’d later share.
All my roommates stayed up, just in case the man taller than the door frame was coming over just to “get some”. When we learned that wasn’t quite his intention, my body guards went to bed one by one.
We talked and talked. It’s as if my appearance didn’t matter. He wanted to know my heart. In one open, honest conversation I felt like I learned more about not only a stranger but also myself. To be honest, had to pee really bad but the conversation was so encouraging to my soul that I didn’t want to get up.

So, my bladder nearly popped but that’s beside the point.
Looking back on that night, I realized something powerful and I want to whisper it to anyone who thinks God has forgotten about them, anyone feeling alone or heartbroken or just really discouraged: I think meeting God is a lot like that. He meets us on our front doorstep, daily. He’s right there, knocking on the door of your heart. He doesn’t care about the stink or grime or shame stuck on you – He just wants to know you. And He’s already done all the heavy lifting and weathered much more than cold and rain and sleet.

Because the God that loves you? He weathered the cross, the cold, the blood, the sweat, and the tears. He’s hiked the hill to calvary, all in pursuit of your heart. You just have to open the door.

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    Sarah
    December 13, 2016 at 9:02 pm

    Hi Jordan
    I love your posts & blog and wanted to get some guidance from you.
    I am in a serious relationship, we have been together for close to two years.
    Although I told myself I wouldn’t move in until we were engaged I did a year and a few months into the relationship. Part of me wishes I didn’t but the other part enjoys it.
    I am still saving myself for marriage and he is respectful of this. We have spoken about marriage and he wants to get married but now my feelings are changing and it is making me very sad and confused. I was raised Catholic but got saved when I entered grad school. I love attending service however my boyfriend says he feels uncomfortable when he goes with me and that he prefers Catholic church. I just would like whatever advice you have for me. I have been feeling sad a lot and I don’t know if this is from God or just my own self getting in the way of the relationship I am in. I thought that this sadness is because I seek a lot of affection from him which at times are not met (too my standards). I’ve talked to him about this but he feels he does meet my needs. So it is just a hard situation for me. A little more info. He was previously married (he’s 8 years older than me), he’s been divorced for a while now and told himself he would never marry until he met me. There are times when I see him and think that is my husband but then there are times when I feel like there is someone else for me and for him. The confusing part for me is that though I feel this way, I also have a hard time seeing myself without him. He really wants a family and I want him to have that. I just don’t want to marry and still feel sad/frustrated because that is the type of environment I grew up in and I just wouldn’t want to raise children in that type of enviornment. Anyways Jordan I know I wrote a lot but I would greatly appreciate any input you may have and prayers always.

    Thank you!

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      Grace
      January 9, 2017 at 12:29 am

      I know I’m not Jordan, but I feel for you. Feelings are messy. I’m no relationship guru, but pray. Pour over scripture. Seek God’s will above your own. I think you’re on the right track thinking about the environment that your future children will be raised in. It would be wise for the two of you to be on the same page about faith, both for your sake and that of your children.
      Sorry to butt in and ramble, but I hope this at least somewhat helpful. 🙂

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        Jordan Lee
        January 9, 2017 at 1:15 pm

        Grace — great advice! Thanks for stepping into this one! Xx

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      Jordan Lee
      January 9, 2017 at 1:14 pm

      Hi Sarah!
      Thanks for reading and I’m sorry for the delay. You know, I think sometimes we experience these fears and worries and feelings you’re describing for one of two reasons.
      1. The feelings are nudges of the Spirit. If there’s any feeling of guilt or unease, that’s generally His way of getting our attention. Don’t turn that off if you have a hunch God is leading you elsewhere — it’s really hard when our feelings are involved but so necessary for the bigger picture of our life.
      2. The feelings may be the result of fear. But fear is faith in the wrong thing. You have to take a step back and ask, “am I placing my faith in this relationship, in its ability to complete me or give me the future I’ve dreamed of? Or am I placing my faith in GOD? The only thing that won’t let me down?”
      When we place our faith in people and in relationships, we are going to be fearful and worry because they are not a firm foundation and will disappoint and hurt us at some point.
      I don’t have a black and white answer for you other than pray through it and remove yourself from the emotions of it as much as possible to see the situation with an objective and Godly perspective. Seek counsel from those who know and love you and the answer will be clear – just be prepared for it to be what you may not want it to be.
      Hope this helps! Xox

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    Victoria Davidson
    January 2, 2017 at 10:20 pm

    Thank you so much for the encouragement, Jordan! You are such an inspiration to all the ladies out there! keep up the good work!

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